Love. Love is probably the most difficult thing in the world
to describe. And I haven’t had much experience with it in my short lifetime, so
maybe I’m not the best source for this kind of topical writing piece. But, in
the end, it’s just hard. Sometimes in order to show someone, just how much you
love them, you have to hurt them. It’s unavoidable. Inevitable. Sometimes you
meet the person that you’re meant to be with, before you’re ready to be with
them. But just because it doesn’t work now, doesn’t mean it never will. They
say if you love something, you should let it go. If it comes back, it’s yours.
If it doesn’t, it never was.
Sometimes you need to let go to figure out how to hold on.
You have to know who you are before you can truly know someone else. You have
to want to be with yourself forever before you can be with the person you love
forever. And I know that’s not hard for most people – but for some, it is. For
some, it’s an endless debate between being with the person you love most in the
whole world, and not being with anyone, even yourself.
There’s only so much you can take, even from the person you
love. The last thing you want to do is hurt them, but sometimes you have to do
what’s best for yourself. You can’t always put the one you love above yourself,
even if you want to. Even if the only thing you want in the world is to make
them happy, sometimes you just simply can’t. Sometimes it’s too difficult. All
you can hope, with a lost love, is that someday, at the right time, it will
come back stronger than ever.
This is absolutely 100% the hardest thing I have ever had to
do, and every bone in my body is telling me to take it back. But I can’t. All I
can do is hope that one day, it will all be better. But in the meantime, there
are a lot of things that both you and I know we need to work on.
I love you darling. Now, and always. Pinky promise.
♡
